MY SHOUT-OUTS

2010-08-01T22:57:00.001+08:00

i am sad knowing that we can never happen.
you wouldnt risk it.
i am not naive, you are.

2010-07-29T22:54:00.001+08:00

in my heart you'll always be. never in reality. just in my dreams

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Miserable.

2010-07-27T11:23:00.001+08:00

And so, I decided to fall very sick.

..

2010-07-27T11:21:00.001+08:00

Let me try

2010-07-27T11:20:00.001+08:00

it was my virgin trip to the lan games station to play what others have tried, left 4 dead 2. in what flor would say, lag. hahahaha. yes, it was my first. i am not a fan of shooting/killing-zombies-and-making-so-much-noise kind person.

so friend was saying its about time to learn to play this things. so why not since im gonna be stuck there. little did i know tht the game is actually addictive. we played till it was 430am! time flies huh. but it was fun.

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2010-07-26T09:31:00.002+08:00

it's already monday and i still have no access to company's folder. FML.

2010-07-09T04:11:00.000+08:00

WATCH THIS SPACE.
like FINALLYYYYY

fffffffffffggggggg

2010-06-11T03:19:00.001+08:00

Who's nice enough to transfer me funds.

2010-05-08T09:08:00.002+08:00

i feel like running to the corner and crying my heart out and hope that he'll come and comfort me with his arms around me and letting me cry on his shoulders. But its not gonna happen cos thats not reality, THIS IS REALITY. i feel like shit. i really do. :( saddest saddest saddest saddest day in 2010.

2010-05-08T09:05:00.000+08:00

2010-05-08T08:46:00.002+08:00

the only reason i pretend to be ok is to hide the hurt i feel inside.
i miss you. so so bad.

2010-05-08T04:06:00.002+08:00

the doubts are overwhelming. the actions doesnt speak what the words say (thats if you get what i mean). im trapped. im emotionally drained. seriously.

2010-05-05T00:49:00.000+08:00

i dont know but i think i maybe, falling for you, falling so quickly. Maybe i should keep this to myself. wait until i know you better. I am trying not to tell you but i want to, im scared of what you'll say so im hiding what im feeling but im tired of holding this inside my head. Ive been spending all my time just thinking bout you, i dont know what to do. I think im falling for you.

this sucks. totally sucks. a gazillion times.

2010-04-21T13:41:00.001+08:00

take a quick guess where we went?

2010-04-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

where shall i start

2010-03-22T01:06:00.001+08:00

boyfriend came to my workplace with a bouquet of flowers in his hands. Awww.. So sweet. I love my boyfriend!

2010-03-17T01:16:00.003+08:00

i sat at the front seat of 9300x thinking.
what Fair said was true. every single bit of it was true. it wasnt a big deal at first but after given some thought, it started to kick in. It seems that i always put others first before myself. i do things for people. i plan for them. i help them. i think about them. and have they done anything for me? im not asking them to but if you were to give some thought to it, i think im being way too nice to people. i am not trying to expect something in return but if they are smart enough and appreciate the things i do for them, once in awhile, out of nicesity/nicecity (if ever there is a word for it, but im sure you know exactly what i mean) they'll do things for me. so i sat there, and reflect. none did anything back for me. zero. zilch.

im gonna stop being way too nice here. i'll help/i'll do when im told and when people are willing to come together to do it as one instead of me myself and i. this time im serious. ill wait and see if people are willing enough to use their non functioning brains to repay my kindness. fair was so right this time.

2010-03-16T23:35:00.002+08:00

so i was at work and i told yan i'm having masalah(problems in malay).

Then casey interrupted and say. "masalah?" laughed out loud!

"Isn't allah your god? And masak means cook? So you're cooking your god!"

Hahaha.. Casey casey. Its just the way we say it.

2010-03-16T23:29:00.002+08:00

knowing that i'm not a runner and running is not my forte. Completing a 10km jog twice even though i'm taking my own sweet time to finish it feels so good. Good not that i managed to finish it. Feels good Because i get to tire myself and head to bed early. My body clock's haywired. So by sleeping early and waking up full of energy, thats the best part. The bad part is that, i cant run everyday so that makes me not get a good sleep almost every other day. Dannggggg.!

2010-03-15T04:35:00.002+08:00

i need to go out. my work is somewhat killing my social life.
you see, when i work i complain no social life.
when i dont work complain got no money.
how like that? complain only. HAHAHA

2010-03-15T04:01:00.003+08:00

eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh
stop telephoning me.

my boyfriend busy with work.
:(

2010-03-15T03:42:00.002+08:00

why dont hot/extremely cute/guys that girls drool at dont look at simple girls like me? why do hot guys think that hot guys hafta get hot girls? why are they like that? whats up with the ego?

ohbtw, i wanna see that guy from the club. :)

2010-03-15T03:39:00.002+08:00

crushing on somebody is not the problem
crushing on somebody and knowing that you're already attached is still not the problem.
but knowing that crushing on somebody will make you crush for that somebody deeper and the crush dont stop there and you're not stopping yourself from having a deeper crush for that somebody. THAT IS THE PROBLEM.

2010-03-13T17:12:00.002+08:00

im disturbed by the many thoughts in my mind.
the feeling of uncertainty envelopes me.
just thinking of those things uses up almost all of my energy
im drained.

work has been alright. this time its alittle different.
i dont look forward to work anymore. i know where i stand now.
i have been considering finding another job. somewhere with a better pay
and a place where it is course related.

but at the same time, i dont wish to start the "real working" just yet
if you get what i mean.

now things are starting to kick in, many thoughts running in my mind
running wild like the wind.

this feeling deep inside me
draining all my energy
what will the end be
i hope its not something to feel sorry

sitting and pondering of the many thoughts
just so i could clear my mind
these problems seems like tied knots
oh heaven, please be kind

now, i gotta go get ready for work.

2010-03-06T02:30:00.003+08:00

I've yet to pack but not to worry, i can pack 3hours before my trip. Did the exact thing during my redang trip. No idea at exactly what time is my flight. Haha! I hope the girls are gonna have fun at bintan. Guess what, thailand's weather check, 38degress la seh! Goodluck to us. Bangkok here i come!!

2010-03-06T02:10:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry for the lack of updates. Dont get me wrong when i say that. I do have alot of happenings and outings going around but it's just that i'm pure lazy to blog it out. Who reads it anyway right?

Lets see, these are the few things i remembered. In random order that is
-picnic with the girls and dslr
-picnic with sam and hud
-work work work
-percy jackson with fair and gang
-percy jackson with cousin
-work work work
-karaoke @cashstudio
-met up with lynn
-abg jib's birthday.

Dah, tu je. All i cant remember.

2010-03-06T01:56:00.003+08:00

Everybody is greedy. Dont deny that fact. Who wouldn't wanna get 2 or more for the price of 1 right? But then, under certain circumstances when you actually have the chance to have more than one, you're not allowed to. Cos you wanna know why? In life, yes you can keep your options open but at the end of the day, you are the one who decides whats best and what is it that you need most. Just 1. 1 will do.

I wanna be your favourite girl.

2010-02-24T18:39:00.000+08:00

-
The anger building in my heart
Makes me wanna smack you real hard
Its not about the choices that i make
Its the answers that i take

The same stupid reasons you give
You think I'd believe?
Im not that naive you see
Eventhough trust is the key

So better get going my friend
To a far away place
At a sickening lonely land
Where I cant see your face!!

2010-02-11T11:37:00.001+08:00

We're leaving together
But still its farewell
And maybe we'll come back
To Earth,who can tell?

ITS THE FINAL COUNTDOWN!

2010-01-24T04:17:00.003+08:00

started out with an interview in the morning
had my kfc am porridge
walked around mall
met groupmates for project at 12
borrowed books or rather mags
crm till 5pm
waited for adib till i finished 12 chapters of the book
continued to do my automation cos adib brought the lappy for my usage
went to mall cos that boy wanted to eat
met nizam at hougang mall, min picked us up.
headed to ecp with the boys
sugarcane drink with ahpek's koch
endless stupid and lame jokes while waiting for the wings
wings arrived like 40mins later?
Shooting star at ecp
fayyadh's and huda's antics
magic gone wrong
more laughter
parents at ecp too
belaian jiwa
bohemian rhapsody
both like no melody
home sweet home
Additional part for SQM

that sums it all up. I am tired. Ive been out the whole day. thanks boys for the impromptu night out. thanks girl for the nonsense. thanks min for the ride. thanks nizam for the love. thanks all for the night. lets go hong kong. we're going right? all of us?

2010-01-24T04:00:00.003+08:00

met up with boyf on thursday after his work for dinner at abg noor's house. There's this cute kitcat (kitten turning into a cat) at his brother's place. I am usually afraid of carrying a cat as i would not want it to scratch my delicate skin. chey! haha.

but this kucing, so the good you know. not afraid of human beings. dont scratch, dont bite, dont struggle. nama dia mummy. as in wrap kinda mummy or is it mama kinda mummy. i dont know. you decide.

2010-01-20T11:32:00.001+08:00

The fact that people wants to be the best and be a perfectionist. They tend to brag. Eventhough they try to cover it up, they'll manipulate with their own words and eventually, they'll still brag. yes, maybe when they brag, the attention will be diverted to you but for how long may i ask? well, not for long dear.

*on a side note, i'm excited for thailand trip. huda, are you ready?

lets see, here are the places i wanna go with friends/family

Thailand (confirmed)
Bali/Phuket
Gold Coast
Pulau Perhentian/Redang

thats all for now. i'll list more when time and money permits. i cant list down places when realistically i dont have the cash right? :)

oh, and London to visit Nizam once he moves there.

oogling at hot/cute guys. k, that is random

2010-01-19T22:06:00.002+08:00

i tried but i cant. i cant seem to blog often. anyway, im feeling so much better from the sickness and all. :D projects and projects. im still at page 1 for supply chain.

we'r gonna end school by 12 feb. isnt that wonderful.

2010-01-11T11:28:00.002+08:00

Sherlock Holmes was what we went for. Selling fast was what we got. Other movies was not an option. Disappointment was the result. Jalan-jalan in the mall awhile before i decided to go to barrage. my virgin trip there. it was a nice place. calm yet crowded. get what i mean?

BBQ wings and sugar cane drink with lemon was our supper. East Coast lagoon was its location. makcik parking giving tickets. Finding empty carpark in desperation.

the bbq wings was yummylicious. so craving for it now.

2010-01-11T11:19:00.001+08:00

WARNING- MIXED MALAY ENGLISH ENTRY
Sunday was kakak sammy nye brother's wedding. Went with fair and met up with father and daughter(hud and daddy). That father or hers is one funny man i tell you. Handsome pulak tu, mcm adib. HAHAHAHAHA. the nasi briyani i tell you, sedap. sampai tambah tambah (credits to huda's daddy for campak-ing the rice at my place) tapi, habis jugak. berkat sudu garpu tak main eh. chocolate kite kebas. mama sammy cute, boom boom ke ba boom! eh, boom boom pow. (baju dier la) sammy nye baju, fuhlamak. lawa!!! i like. like seriously. what else? hmmmm, boyfriend pendiam. makan then diam. dah kenyang agaknye(credits to pak yusof lagi). tu aje la. A day at abg sammy's wedding :)

2010-01-11T11:13:00.001+08:00

a weekend spent out with my dearest "brother lup". Just you and me and a honda fit. that vick had turned darker. i asked him everyday questions like how are you and how's ns bla bla bla.

Me: Made any friends?
V: all young boys uh.

wah, step he big only.

M: who's car is this?
V: i stole it.
M: wow! so coincidentally all cars you steal happens to belong to an Indian?
V: all indians always leave their keys behind.

i know most of you are clueless but its an inside joke.

met up for an early dinner at sakura, i had my char kway teow and he had thai fried rice, his was yummy. i felt like exchanging my food with him. have you ever experienced that your friend's food is always nicer than yours. Headed dte to have a face-off for guitar hero. he hadnt heard of that game before so we decided to do something fun and new for him. 1hour passed so fast!. No ice cream for me cos i was sick, no curly fries. no this no that. NONSENSE. went to a random place and chatted. did some catching up. i missed that brother lup of mine.

2010-01-02T18:15:00.006+08:00

so i celebrated the new year with the company of my sorethroat, flu and cough. plus an on and off fever. i was too sick to go out yesterday when fair asked me out so he took the effort to drop by my place to "visit" me.

since he's got the car with him, we went to send abg jib to the mall, back home to fetch mama and bak and then to kovan to fetch kak intan from work. proceeded to geylang to send my parents. off we went for some tokyo drift went wrong. haunted house and rumah org org kaya. hahaha.

after math, fetch parents and off we went to changi to have seafood. my favourite. i know i shouldnt be eating all those since im down with immune breakdown but they're having chilli crab. i cant resist temptation. bedal la. hahaha.

today. im sick. thanks.
sorethroat cough flu.
and worst,

FEVER!

2010-01-01T15:04:00.001+08:00

2009-12-30T23:30:00.001+08:00

thanks samirah and you know who for the concern.
have a great new year.
:D

im sure what you say is true sam.
the one where people are not there are my lowest peak kinda thing.
lets just hope.

2009-12-30T01:57:00.003+08:00

i felt sad. super down.
the amount of sadness that fills me is equivalent to the sadness i felt on 11 feb 2008. imagine how sad i was. i cant seem to find whats the root to this sad feeling. it couldve been all the other small things that accumulated into this massive feeling. but i just couldnt find the answer to why was i feeling that way.

the feeling of sadness was overwhelming that it left tears rolling down my cheeks.

2009-12-26T02:41:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS FELLOW READERS.

counted coins in my piggy bank
collect debts
tried to clean the room
hungry but lazy to get food
xmas gathering at maryanne's at 11plus pm
black dress
funky jazz
arabic beats
dance hits
taboo
drunk girls

that sums it all. we were playing taboo at maryanne's. you know how the game is being played right? you cant say any of the words in the list, you have to use other words for them to guess the correct word. got it?? hahaha. i doubt so. anyway, it was my turn. so i asked

ME: Its big. guys always like to show them. what do guys like to show off?
THE BOYS: cock! their cock.
EVERYBODY: *LAUGH LAUGH*

the answer was: biceps. hahaha. epic!

2009-12-24T23:49:00.001+08:00

ohno
ohno
ohno.

im so caught up. got me feeling it, caught up. im losing control this guy's got a hold on me.

2009-12-24T16:11:00.002+08:00

should i have a private blog where i can pen my thoughts and whatever i feel. i know that having a blog means putting it in public. But sometimes you just wish to let it out somewhere where nobody reads. you just want to let it off your chest. keeping a diary means a higher chance of it to be found. having a private blog means no chance to be found unless somebody else knows the password. what say you?

cos in the modern world, anybody and everybody around the globe is able to read my thoughts and entry and maybe some would agree and disagree and the blog's tagboard will be a hot spot where people argue while the bloggers themselves just want to pen their thoughts.

in a private blog, nobody will comment, none will view. its just a space to let it out.

or should i just write in on a piece of paper and burn it, put it in a glass of water and drink it up. saves all the trouble isnt it?

2009-12-24T13:47:00.001+08:00

who wouldnt enjoy a ride on a big bike
i sure did.
I'll tell you my dirty little secret.

2009-12-23T20:03:00.002+08:00

so i decided to scrap out the 12 days program due to time constraint. If not, i'll be out there enjoying my 12 days. its ok. maybe next time.

:)

i lovelovelovelovelove bueno-ing.
especially when boyf tries to pujok me with kinder bueno.
i'll refuse it but he'll somehow keep it aside for me knowing
that after we're done with out squabbles, ill get it back. hahaha

2009-12-23T08:25:00.001+08:00

Does he means the spelling system?

2009-12-23T08:09:00.003+08:00

here i am in the morning trying to bake some brownie before heading to school. there's so much work undone. anyway during my silat camp we talked about so many weird things. demons, devils,2012 and such. take a good look at david copperfield's magic tricks ( im a big fan of him!). how is it possible to make the statue of liberty disappear? how can he go to the bermuda triangle and managed to retrieve the exact lost ship? HELLO! bermuda triangle everyone. some say its the demons help. well, i did google it and try to find out. there are lots of controversy about this guy's magic. we'll just wait and see what i found k. i'll post it another entry regarding that.

i just love surfing the net finding for interesting things to read up rather than the same old facebook youtube blogger routine. i do that too but i just love googling some other random stuffs. that day, i read up about gog and magog. a 230plus page and i read it. power pe! hahaha.

to wenlin, if you're reading this. come find me!

2009-12-22T19:07:00.002+08:00

it saddens me most of the time to see things end up this way.
fuck to almost all my friends
fuck to those who think they're always there for me
fuck to those fuckers who think they're always right

at this point, i hate everyone.

2009-12-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

i hope karma's a big bitch.
i cant wait for it to hit you.

2009-12-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

they're just my friends
i remind you time and again
not the ones who'll drive you insane.

they're just my friends
with no ulterior motives
please, you have to trust me on this.

i know, its never easy being a guy
trying to put up a brave front
when you actually wanted to cry

fret not my boy
for you're my bundle of joy

2009-12-15T21:56:00.001+08:00

i wanna start on my 12 day program. but when. lets see, school reopens on the 28th and i have camp tmr till thursday. so can i start on friday? but then, i'll only end the program on the 29th. hmm. how?

2009-12-15T16:35:00.002+08:00

bodoh nizam.
come back quick.

that day i watched zombieland with fair and his friends after wedding. went to amk hub with baju kurung high heels and handbag. hahaha. :D

tmr's silat camp. honestly, i dont look forward to it. i really dont know why. camps used to hype me up but not this time. i so dont look forward to running around for amazing race but well, we shall see.

on a random note, i feel like doing the hoedown throwdown.

2009-12-03T23:22:00.004+08:00

i miss redang.

So little time yet there's so many things to do. I doubt i'll even have time to study for my this coming termtest. Ive got lots going on this week and my test is like what, next coming monday. so tomorrow im out say till 10pm. i'll be tired by then, right? saturday afternoon im gonna meet my boyfriend. aftermath, hippo tour with cousin and friend at 9pm. Sunday im having picnic over at barrage with the soon to be nsboy. Monday is already term test. see what i mean? and im still stucked at chapter 3 of supp chain. But whatever i studied didnt stay inside. i wake up the next morning and pooof, gone.

why do hyprocrites exist?
it sucks.

daddy gave the greenlight to go bang-a-cock(quoted from nizam) with friends :D

2009-12-02T21:29:00.001+08:00

itchy hand me, now my hair looks weird and ugly.

2009-12-02T21:27:00.001+08:00

Hippo Tour with cousin on saturday to see the xmas lights. thats if everything goes in place and no sudden plan decides to ruin the event.

2009-12-02T21:26:00.001+08:00

SO I HEARD THAT WE'RE SKIPPING GOLD COAST FOR THAILAND.

2009-12-02T21:23:00.003+08:00

so, fair's meeting me only once a week now thanks to work. this has been going on for weeks. the amazing thing is, i can survive seeing him only once a week. shit, tell me is it a good or a bad thing? we used to meet almost all the time but when he starts working, i somehow can survive not seeing him. i think its a good thing. dont you?

2009-11-22T18:53:00.001+08:00

freak! i miss them.

2009-11-22T14:58:00.002+08:00

what if i wanted to break. laugh it all off in your face. what would you do? what if i fell to the floor, couldnt take this any more. what would you do? come, break me down! marry me, bury me. i am finished with you!

2009-11-21T13:33:00.003+08:00

in school everyone has cliques.
people have a group of friends who they can rely on.
who will be there for them. who will support them.
who are willing to help them. who will just be with them and love them.

throughout my school years, be it primary school
secondary school or poly life. all ive been doing is,
just trying to fit in. i dont have any cliques. im usually seen around anywhere everywhere with anyone. im not trying to say im sad that i dont have one, well sometimes it does especially when in doubt or facing a problem, i tend to not know who to find and share it with. but maybe that is what i am good at. mixing around with all the other poeple. being a nobody in everybody's life. ok, this part emo shit. hahah.

fitting in. that is what ive been doing all along. all this entire time. nobody made me felt special.

k dah! no more.
going to tascha's bday later
cya

2009-11-18T12:30:00.006+08:00

The day that nizam took my watch and didnt return to me so i took samirah's watch and she took my nizam's watch so that she can return it back to nizam and get my watch back on my behalf and i'll return samirah her watch on thursday and she'll pass mine back to me.

This is the day when we decided to watch paranormal activity together with boyfriend. i must say that the movie wasnt all that scary after all. i admit i was a little scared at the beginning as i was not sure of whats gonna happen but later on, i wasnt scared. its not scary people. and my poor huda, she watched it like twice and she was seen covering her face with her jacket almost half of the movie.

2009-11-10T10:59:00.002+08:00

If guys were to say
1) "If this makes you happy, then im happy"
2) "Im happy if you're happy"
3) "If you're happy with the other guy then go, i'll be happy for you"

is this all true? is it what they really want? Is it really real?
what say you? what are your thoughts?
come give me your comment.

2009-11-08T15:13:00.003+08:00

my computer just had to crash on me. so what did i do? I took 5dollars from my wallet and went straight to the shop and purchased myself 2 chocolates 2 packets of tidbits and lemon barley drink. To top that up, i asked dad to get me chicken rice. Go to hell with "A Syndrome". Gobbled down the junk and boy, when was the last time i felt shiok. shiok with chocolates. who hates chocolates? ok, maybe one person hates chocolates.

After the ordeal, picked myself up and started doing my report again. See, eating junk is not that bad after all. It gives you the extra ommmpphhh in doing your work. :D And now, i feel like eating McSpicy. What the...

Anyway, Fair will be coming later for a session of "watch downloaded movies at home together". How sweet is that.

2009-11-07T12:53:00.002+08:00

work is starting to pile up.

#1
and i hate friends who just couldnt be bothered to help you. take this for an instance, friend A replies to your messages as soon as she/he reads it. You're happily messaging friend A and he/she is replying like normal. Then you asked her/him for help and the phone goes silent. No messages from this friend A or whatsoever. Isnt it abit obvious that he/she is not willing to help you. I mean c'mon man, if you cant help. you tell, dont leave a friend hanging HOPING that you'll help. To tell that maybe he/she was busy and would reply later, you're wrong. The phone remains silent. FOREVER

FUCKYOU FRIEND.

(boyf sees that im cursing, im dead.)

#2
And what happened to one people one nation ONE SINGAPORE when all you need is chinese? Im not trying to post anything bad about the chinese but its the mentality that Singaporeans are having now. Take job opportunities as an example. Lets say the criteria is to be Bilingual. I HAVE a friend who takes chinese lesson but is a non chinese. She went to an interview and got rejected when she was qualified with all the relevant skills and requirements. WHY? cos she's a non chinese. And whats up with people only employing chinese? whats gonna happen to the others? The first thing they'll ask is "You can speak chinese?" or "Are you chinese?". Im not trying to say that all job opportunities are as such but majority of it is LIKE THAT. One more example, as we know, Singapore's main population is made up of chinese. agree? Why must they put at the requirements section " Mandaring speaking ONLY". Furthermore, its for a job at central. They can just scrap out that part in the notice. And when the interview is being conducted and knowing that many chinese will apply because singapore is made up of 70% chinese people. They can just pick the chinese that they want. It wouldnt hurt just to squeeze in afew non chinese right? I believe that peopl at town are able to understand and speak ENGLISH so i don understand why they need ALL chinese. AND if the non chinese were to work, but happen to deal with a chinese speaking customer, he/she can ask another his fellow CHINESE worker for assistant. am i right? is that even difficult. IT WOULDNT HARM ANYONE JUST TO SQUEEZE IN NON CHINESE TO WORK. They should atleast understand english. what happened to all the campaigns? the SPEAK GOOD ENGLISH CAMPAIGN. honestly, this is inequiality. Im speaking this on behalf of those who are sadly not employed due to this reasons. Ive got afew friends who are experiencing this. But once again let me stress this out, NOT ALL JOB OPPORTUNITIES ARE LIKE THIS. maybe he/she is unlucky to be facing this all the entire time.

all i want is.
We the citizens of Singapore
Pledge ourselves as ONE UNITED PEOPLE
REGARDLESS of race language or religion
To build a DEMOCRATIC SOCIETY
Based on justice and EQUALITY
So as to achieve happiness
Prosperity and PROGRESS for our
NATION

2009-11-05T01:38:00.004+08:00

baby's in an accident.

and god knows what happened to him.

i have no clue whatsoever.

I got a msg saying he's at the hospital.

He wouldnt answer my calls

nor reply my messages.

He's got me worried all night.

idiot.

i just want to know what happened.

2009-10-31T23:50:00.002+08:00

1. I went to collect abg's sim card @ Tamp
2. Mass messaged my safari members
3. Ramen 10 with abg. 1-for-1 ramen
4. Last day promotion
5. Rained super heavy, Doubt itll stop anytime soon
6. Cancelled Night safari trip for halloween
7. Cancelled Escape To Helloween with the others
8. Ditched butterfact
9. Ran in the rain bare footed
10. Slippers were slippery
11. Rain Ruined Plans
13. Im having a runny nose
14. Fuck those idiots.

2009-10-24T14:18:00.002+08:00

is it even normal for unknown people to just pop up in your life.
is it an ok thing for people to be curious and poke their noses in our lives?
is it possible that they needed some drama too probably just to let us know of their existence.
is it alright if these kinda people dont bother us.

why is it hard to keep a low profile life?
is there really hatred between friends.
is there actually friends?

if not, i want this people out of my life and the others.

2009-10-19T22:15:00.003+08:00

mondays are never gonna be the same again.
starting the day with lab and ending with tutorial,
but i pity dear bestfriend, all the way to buona vista.
goodluck sista!

we are going cycling.

2009-10-17T18:06:00.004+08:00

I need to be out there doing more physically challenging things. I wanna try new things. i'm just waiting for another holiday and im sure gonna plan it well, provided that i have the buckaroos.

bf is sure gonna say this
"ah, lawa la tu muke"

2009-10-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

15 october
lets see if im able to not break the chain.

i cooked lontong goreng for 2 consecutive days cos bak and abg jib said it was nice. mama said i dah pandai masak. adik said sedap. only cousin didnt get to taste it. besides lontong goreng, i made kebab (my style). personally i loved it cos it has cheese in it and the chicken was done solely by me! it taste whoaaa. cheyyy! but fair said must be humble, cannot action.

anyway, timetable's out. tuesday n wednesday off, they should instead put it to thursday friday. that way, it'll be thursday friday saturday sunday off. i was out that day battling guitar hero with bf izzat huda. bf didnt know that i actually play console games. cos i always label him as a game freak. so when i was out battling, he said

"dalam diam diam, you pun main game jugak eh"
(something like that uh, dont quite remember the exact words though)

so here i am waiting for cousin to come home so i can surprise her with birthday cake when the clock strikes 12. tick tock tick tock.

2009-10-10T17:53:00.003+08:00

i miss silat.
but i hate running.
yumm, save me!

ive been meeting fair since thursday.
im gonna meet him again later and tmr.
non stop action with my fair&lovely.

2009-10-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

2009-10-09T14:32:00.004+08:00

i lost my camera charger so this means that im not gonna bring my camera around and i have to depend on others for pictures. I lost it last 2 weeks! this is soooooo frustrating. i tried finding it but it just couldnt be found.

boyfriend's busy playing game.
he ditched meeting me for game.
thanks sayang.

2009-10-08T00:31:00.002+08:00

my butt hurts so much. i have difficulty sitting down. everytime i sit, i tilt my body to the other side. its as though im a pregnant lady trying to sit. but the fact is, my tail bone hurts. real bad. this is due to the outing i had with boyfriend and his friends. i pandai2 want to sit behind mah, so his friend drove past a hump and i came flying up and crashing back on my seat with my tail bone hitting hard on the seat.

ouch, it really hurts even when i need to shit.
how now?

2009-10-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

ive been really busy

2009-09-27T12:45:00.003+08:00

i had a great day yesterday with non stop people coming over to my place and me having to clean the table wash the dishes and fill up the dining table all the time. yesternight was fun too, a quick meet up session with the lovelies whom ive not seen for ages. that nana's hair has grown super long. i met her favourite boy and i had a great time talking to juliana. eventhough it was a quick one, i really did enjoy the time spend talking and meeting them all over again. oh, not forgetting the escapeeesss. dhai was there too. boyfriend was being nice to follow me to nana's place. didnt bring my digi so nana's camera had to do the work. haha. thanks girl.

hope you love the gift :D

2009-09-24T19:58:00.004+08:00

i felt this massive guilt eating inside me as i did the one thing i shouldnt even be thinking of doing. But, i did it anyway. It wasnt as if i wanted it to happen. i've tried ways and means to stay far away from doing it. Not only that, i blocked the thought of it just so it wont remind me. I couldnt control this feeling inside of me thats making me do that. It just happened. I know i was at fault but whats there to be done?

once you go black you never go back.
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i promised myself not to eat the kuehs on my dining table just for today but the bottles were layed nicely waiting for me to open them and savour the kuehs. ive had way too many kuehs since the first raya.

2009-09-24T13:25:00.006+08:00

everybody's watching idol.

yesterday night was another jalan raya and this time we only managed to go to 4 houses. actually mum and dad wanted to go another 3-4 more houses. first house was my soccer boy "in laws" house. they have been dying to match make me with him since small till now. haha. how cute. so he gave me green packet and his mum/uncle said

"balek check, dalam packet ade number"
"hahahahaha"

but they were just kidding around. last time i went to genting with his family. i've never really spoken to him face to face only until that day i saw him at the coffeeshop. cos from young till now they disturb us, shy lahhhh. ahahahaha. :D

then when i told fair about the incident, dier jealous la youuu.. tsktsk. my boyfriend cepat jealousss. he wanted to meet me after my visiting. after the last house, i went straight to the void deck only to find him with abang playing their nintendo DS. so i waited and waited. too engrossed in playing their games. so i went up to change. went down again and they're still playing. haha. so i said

"ok, i give you 3 minutes to trade"
"and 4 minutes to battle"

but nooooo, i went to 7-11 to get mum's sandwich and went up to pass her then came back down, they're still playing!! they only ended at 2340pm. wow. hahaha.

nasib baik lup, so we went to sengkang's drive thru to get his macd. drive here drive there. but macd was closed so went back to hougang. walked and talked and went off after that cos he had work the next day.

he said
"B, my $1 coins i collected have amounted to $259."
"we can get chocolates for you."
awww...

2009-09-22T01:15:00.007+08:00

i miss my boyfriend. :(

so, heres nothing much but just some of the many pictures taken during first raya. very very tiring. oh no! i forgot to take picture of the dishes. but its superb. love mummy's cooking. baby's gonna meet me tmr. yayness. ok, im dead tired but i dont know why i cant seem to shut my eyes.

my cina father and my datin mother.

remember not long ago? i went to my kampung during the fasting month. yes, theres lots of pictures and lots of food for break fast. the hall is filled with people. it looks like a kenduri. seriously. but i like the feel of having your family all around you. although it can be irritating with children running around and making so much noise, its the bond that we share that keeps us together. so here's the starter pictures for the trip. theres more but just lazy to upload.

2009-09-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

TO ALL FELLOW MUSLIMS OUT THERE,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA
Well, i cant possibly send sms to everyone out there.
so here's a quick shout out to the Muslims.
Syawal kini telah tiba.
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Kepada sesiapa yang saya belom ucapkan,
minta maaf aje la. saya mengambil peluang untuk mengucap disini
segala silap dan salah, harap dimaafkan
kepada kawan2 (segelintir saja) ku yang egoistic bombastic,
takpe lah. saya minta maaf jika ada terkasar bahasa.

it was a long day ytd. i got msges from unknown numbers and friends whom i dont contact and some friends whom i seldom meet wishing me selamat hari raya. i mean, now then they remember me and bother to msg me hari raya? for the past years they dont even contact me. its been so long and suddenly they pop up and seek forgiveness? im not saying that its wrong must its just ... i dont know how to describe it. how can they possibly do any wrongdoings if i havent met them for like 3-4yrs? hahaha. its ok, so long as ade effort dah ok pe. Just forgive and forget. Give and take.

poor bf had to work today. :(
but he sent me one handsome picture in his uniform. haha
oh, and christopher msg me. i dont know why but im kinda happy seeing his msg. without fail he will wish me hari raya even though we were no longer together after sec4. i love it that he has a mindset of an adult who dont think that when you're no longer tgt, you cant msg/ask how im doing. he's such a nice guy.

butbutbut, later my baby jealous pulak. Bb very kuat jealous. so better not let him get jealous if not no malteasers for me.

kaki kanan kaki kiri
selamat hari raya aidilfitri.
betol kan fatin?

oh and flor, dengdeng dah habissss!!

2009-09-18T20:04:00.002+08:00

boyfriend ajak me buka at masjid since today is the last.and oh my! i feel so bad. i ditched boyfriend and masjid altogether just so i could stay home.

2009-09-14T13:14:00.000+08:00

next week is already hari raya.
been helping around with the chores and making of kuehs and cakes for the festive season. alot of things to do and so little time. fasting month flew past so fast dont you think? i still have yet to buy my baju kurung but i think i'll give it a miss cos im only gonna wear it twice or thrice je. so i think im gonna wear my past year's baju. its still in good condition so why not just use it right?

yesterday my bf scolded me.
then i sad.
then he said: taklah, where got scold you. i never scold you. give you advice je.
then i happy

2009-09-10T04:36:00.001+08:00

2009-09-10T04:17:00.002+08:00

i miss mugging for exams.

i miss booking the project rooms.

i miss trying to get all the admin numbers from friends.

i miss smuggling food into the library.

i miss snapping pictures amidst studying.

i really miss my friends.

we seemed to have drift apart.

partly due to different project groups.

i miss nizam so much. silly boy, ckp nak ajak gi dinner.

do you know how true your friends are to you?

ive got no clue.

2009-09-10T03:43:00.000+08:00

this is so adorable kan.
:D

2009-09-08T05:58:00.001+08:00

i love my boyfriend. :D

2009-09-01T01:27:00.005+08:00

yesterday(sunday) was one boring day. break fast at neighbour's hse since she invited the whole family over for dinner. besides mum didnt cook cos she was waiting to get the fridge repaired. after dinner, we had art and craft session with the kids since it was teachers day on monday. the art teacher (me), decided to have a teachers day card making theme. so the children did their cards for the teachers. i had fun. little did i know that the time flew by fast and it was already 9. quickly called it a day and brought the kids out for a treat. ice cream treat. bought them the ice cream they wanted at 7-11. its been a while since i bought the kids out for a treat. they were so happy. bought ice creams and cookies for them. and brought them home. i dont mind spending some money for the children.

mom cooked my favourite dish today. ketam sambal. yummmy. i had a fall just now. last major fall was.........sec 4. the others are injuries like fractured bones, bruised shins and all. while i was having my night jog with dearest florella, i tripped over that idiotic unlevel stupid pavement and i came flying and crashing to the ground. ok, this sounds dramatic. the fall wasnt that bad but it still hurts. and the best part was, i continued to jog. i cant possibly walk, we were so far away from reaching home, so i continued to jog and talk to flor. trying to put the pain aside but truth was, it stings so bad. i went home and flor attended to my wound. then i proceeded to flor's place. she helped me apply medication. sweet kan my bestfriend. i know..

ahhhh, i hate falls.
fall= scarsss= uglyyy
no seafood and soy sauce for me.

yay, nak balek kampung this thursday.

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2009-08-30T23:14:00.007+08:00

Thursday was spent with my SIP mates. We had an arranged dinner with jasper chang at secret recipe. Before that I went walking around town. Wanted to get my wedges but couldn’t find a suitable one. Was walking walking walking and decided to go to far east. So me and huda walked around the place to kill time cos we were one hour away from breaking fast. Just so, we happened to pass a shoe shop. And and and, I bought shoes for raya already. So the kancheong I know but, better buy now then later right. Anyway it was on sale. It’s a good bargain but huda’s one the best cos her’s is really “SALE”.

Headed to forum Secret Recipe for break fast. Best part was, we only had to eat at 8plus gitu. Kesian kan. but thanks to jasper for the treat. We spent a total of 225++++ wasn’t sure of the exact amount but I know its 200 plus plus plus. Then, walked from forum to plaza sing cos bb wanted to fetch me. He’s such a darling la. He worked that day and only reached home at 9plus and he immediately fetched me from town. Then he’ll always say

“look bb, I love you so much that I don’t mind going the extra distance for you”

Touching kannn. If I cry, he wont pujok me, he’ll just keep quiet and wipe my tears and before I go home he’ll say. (at my door)

“dah bb, jangan cry lagi ok”

After forum, we headed to geylang to jalan2 buy my boyfriend food to eat. Lepaked at festival park and went home only at 1plus becos it seemed like it was gonna rain and Im scared of lightnings and thunder. My boyfriend, bb, darling, bengs and bods. Hahaha. Lovelovelove. :D

today(SAT) was definitely one eventful day for me. it started out to be a sunny saturday morning. Then, out of the blue, daddy was making so much noise about the house and he'll just carik pasal even when there's nothing to carik pasal about. moodswing to the max. and he'll pick up a fight with everyone. so yeah, thats the start of saturday morning. it continued till the end of the day actually. anyway, i met bb and the rest for buka at simpang today. meeting time was 530pm but just when i was about to leave the house, my ezlink!! i misplaced it. wth. so i took a good 30mins to search for it and guess what, it was hidden under the bed. i think it might have dropped and somebody might have kicked it. so me and huda only reached simpang at 7plus, almost buka. and the boys ordered.

-baby kailan

-fried baby squid

-bbq stingray

-black pepper beef

-sweet sour chicken

-butter prawns

just look at the number of dishes. just for the four of us. the table was squeezy with all the food. Miraculously, we were able to finish it. it was quite hilarious cos the boys was watching soccer while me and huda watched michael jackson concert. we headed to Tamp1,century square and tamp mall aftermath. We helped izzat to find a suitable birthday gift for his friend. it was a fun process cos we were practically running around these places before shops were closed and we only arrived at 910pm. amazing isnt it. had frolics!!

then me and bb headed to abg is' place at bukit batok. everything was a-okay when suddenly dearest daddy had a change of mood and wanted me home for the night. i was like wth. hello. its already 12am and im at bukit batok. fair's not riding cos izzat gave us a lift. so we waiting for abg is to reach home, vroom vroom back to bedok so fair can take the car and send me home. see, how nice of a boyfriend is he. i was pissed with dad though.

2009-08-27T01:11:00.004+08:00

2009-08-22T18:31:00.000+08:00

baby was being a sweetheart and gave me a surprise call.
kentot! nonsense, i taught u that. haha.
love you manymany.

i dont really like it when people dont really use proper spelling in the things they type. but im not gonna mention names. i mean its ok if you wish to do it since its your business but majority of you will tend to make it a habit. itsead of night, its being spelled as nyte, nite. ape ape la. haha. abit abit ok. too much, eeww. lagi lagi yang pakai. ya lorsxxxxxssxsxxxx.HaIyoZzzz. hahaha. no nidd. nonsense la.

anyway, i should stop doing the things i should do. i cant help it really. i wish to get over it. but its not over if that one thing were never to happen. ok, bulan ramadhan cannot talk bad things.

bf:assalamualaikum! surprise call!!
me: *LAME TO THE MAX, but i still appreciate it*
me:w'salam.
bf: i binget uh with the house just now but i sabar je, i relac. (nak complain la ni. hehe)

me: alar, relax ok. maybe its a test for you especially on the first day of ramadhan.
bf: a'ah eh.. see,talk to baby make my heart melt.
me: b, i cannot talk manje manje with you know, nanti you tergoda, pastu nanti i dosa. i taknak.
bf: HAHAHAHAHA.

ok, i need to set the table. just came back from a quick run and dang was i dehydrated.

2009-08-21T19:42:00.001+08:00

so tmr marks the beginning of the holy month of ramadhan. Doing good deeds is encouraged during this month (actually, it is encouraged all the time la) more of praying, helping the unfortunate, patient and being nice is coming your way from me. Oh, and not forgetting 30days of fasting. and not long after, it'll be hari raya. see, how fast time flies. anyway, i met up with fair just now after his friday prayers. from most of my friends, he's labelled as a "nice and innocent" guy cos he is really nice. he dont swear and curse and he never raises his voice at me. Very polite and yeah, all the nice things la. so we had a quick meet up today before he headed for tarawih. i asked.

me:nak gi mane?
him: kite gi rounding rounding masjid nak?

nonsense la that boy.
so we rounding rounding to go carik makan cos he said he hungry and want to eat and claimed that i tak kesian him cos i tak ajak him go eat. so we took the bike to bedok reservoir to have early dinner at 4plus pm. on the way there, there's this taxi driver (i hate reckless and irresponsible taxi drivers) who didnt on his signal light and decided to just boom boom pow into our lane. me being me, i wanted to curse but instead i told my innocent boyfriend.

me: b! b!!! middle finger b.
him: *points middle finger to the driver*

HAHAHAHAHA! i was shocked and i laughed. thats the first time my boyfriend does such stuffs cos he's an innocent guy. HAHAHAHAHA. there was once we were at the expressway and i told him to do the same thing but instead he said

him:taknak lah. kan tak baik.
what he does, he shakes his head.

te amo!

2009-08-20T22:57:00.003+08:00

i just hate to pick up a fight. ive stated my stand. you asked for my advice and point of views. ive mentioned it all but instead of taking time to think about it, instead you go against it. you pretended like you understand but actually you just couldnt be bothered. Then, whats the point of you seeking advice when you wouldnt take any of it? i dont ask for much, compromise. well, i did talk to you in a nice way didnt i? sometimes, one have to be straighforward to point out others mistakes so they can change themselves. but no, you chose to not listen. you are so rude. when you talk back, i wanted to just point out your mistakes but when i try to bring it up, haiiii... makin menjadi jadi perangai nye. ( i dont know how to translate) so i also couldnt be bothered la, tolerate only lor. cant say much. cos even if i say, you'll say the same things. you'll still be the same so itll be a waste of time. agree? so i would rather shut up and let you do what you do best la eh. just a reminder, ive got limits too k. lets see my tolerance level la k.

you talk nicely and ill talk nicely back.
but itstead you talk rudely and yet i still talked nicely.

so please, everything doesnt have to go yout fucking way

life's a game but its not fair.

i break the rules so i dont care

i know you dont read my blog, just needed to rant.

fuckoff bitches

my boyfriend friday takde off.
ops ajeeeee

nasib baik i lup

2009-08-19T20:22:00.003+08:00

my dearest boyfriend always try his best to pujok me cos his girlfriend here is one big kaki merajok. even if we quarrel, it wont last for days. worst to worst, it'll only be afew hours cos my dearest boyfriend will always say

Him: nasib baik i syg you, kalau tak, i dah rembat. HAHAHA

that time i merajok, i walked all the way to the handphone shop, then he followed me, with his bike. i saw him but purposely pretended that i didnt. So i walked back home, then, he still can follow me back home with his bike.

we caught G.I Joe yesterday at the cathay. The day before, we had ramen 10. he let me choose, swensens or ramen 10. i was full and couldnt finish my food so i gave it to him. Everytime i cant finish, he'll be my food eater but the one growing is not him, is ME!! hahaha.

now, he's at work and he'll be having his ops later. faster ORD lahhhhh then we can gooooo voooom voooom pow. :D

my boyfriend the best!
power lah he!

2009-08-16T02:37:00.002+08:00

fair's sleeping when he's supposed to call me back in 15mins. its ok. he had a pretty f up day at work. yesterday we carried 2 cartons of drinks on the bike. we were racing to get the drinks within 10mins cos after 10mins, he had to pay for the parking.

me:how much do you have to pay if you exceed the 10mins?
him: 65cents
me: alarrrr.. 65cents je. i pay lar.
him: 65cents can park the whole day tau b.
me: okok. cepat!!

he wanted to carry the 2boxes on his own. took car and sent it to my house. sat down and talked with family. he went back home only at 1am and when he went off, i went straight to bed. haha

love my bb dengs

2009-08-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

happily sleeping.
nice

2009-08-08T02:16:00.000+08:00

I dont know la whats up with blogger. Giving me headache. Anyway, my rocket hero is sleeping and i should be sleeping too cos we have a wedding to attend tmr. I have 2 weddings to attend tmr. Im so looking forward ayam masak merah. Craving fr it this very moment.

Boyfriend's mum ajak makan dinner on monday wit the family. But i shy lah..... Last week ate with them alr. Now nk mkn lagi. So the shy. Mama n boyfriend always tack team tgt gether...

2009-08-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

news alert!!!!!
i can declare that my eyes are 90percent healed. it wil still turn red once awhile. Best my blurrness isnt healing. Thats what im afraid most. Anyway, my cousin is always pampering me with food. By right im not even allowed to touch prawns and other seafood when im having my sore eyes. But no, dearest cousin still dragged me to fish and co to have seafood platter, lagi!! Best part was, i went willingly! Hahaha.

My cousin looks like a chinese now and some said i looked like filipino filipino! Bebot bebot!! Hahaha, i thinl its just the lighting. Gotta go bathe now, stinko after a run with potek eyes and got scolded when i got back bcos dad say nanti dust masok mata. Haiyoooo..

2009-08-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

my eye sight is not getting any better and i am dead worried. i cant read the papers and read the subtitles unless i strain my eyes. how now brown cow?

2009-08-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

my irritating police boyfriend is patroling now.
and he's gonna get his mc spicy meal upsize with shaker fries while patroling.

he is constantly nagging at me to take my medicine.
he calls me up every 3 hours to take my medication.
thank god my eye is getting better if not, ill
be heading to the hospital tmr.

2009-07-31T00:11:00.002+08:00

Aishah arshad is half blind. I am super blind. I cant really see that much. While i was tring to chat with bb at msn, i could hardly read what he typed. It keeps tearing and tearing and tearing. Why oh why. What is happening to me.